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Christmas Time is Here
Happiness and cheer
Fun for all that children call
Their favorite time of the year
Beauty everywhere
Yuletide by the fireside
And joyful memories there
Don’t Be Duped by Lists
A quick scan through social media can lead you through any number of lists: to-do lists, don’t-do lists, top 10 lists of this that and the other.
I happened upon one the other night from TheAutismSite.com blog which touts the Top 9 Signs that Your Toddler May Have Autism.
- Lack of Smiling
- Rare Imitation of Social Cues
- Delay in Babbling & Cooing
- Unresponsiveness to Name
- Poor Eye Contact
- Infrequently Seeking Attention
- Lack of Gesturing
- Repetitive Behaviors
- Delayed Motor Development
As I read through this list, I found myself shaking my head. You see, our spectrum son wouldn’t have fit into more than one of these categories his first two years of life. He was very much a “normal” kid, there were just some things that were different as compared to his older siblings, not wrong, but different. Because of my husband’s involvement in education as a career, he knew long before I did what we were looking at, but even I knew something was different. Because our son was meeting typical milestones, our doctor suggested a “wait and see” approach to answering the oddities that were quickly making our son “him”; again, nothing wrong, just different.
It finally took a long talk with a trusted cousin whose son had recently been diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome before I could wrap my mind around the possibility that what I considered as a “maybe” could very well be a “reality” and even at that point, I had to call our pediatrician to ask for a referral to Easter Seals so that we could begin the diagnostics process not because we wanted him to be autistic, but because we knew we had to find answers for our son.
It would be another 18 months before we would have the diagnosis and even begin to know who and what to ask in order to better help our son, but I shudder to think if we had given up based on a list such as this simply because, well, he didn’t fit the mold of that list. My point here is that as parents, we know our children, and quite often, we know when we need to move on in seeking help for our children. I think back and realize how easily we could have written off the oddities that just made Ben his own little person, but we knew there was more to it than a different personality. Because we followed our gut instincts, we were able to get him the help he needed so that he could enjoy things like an afternoon at the park or the beach and time spent with peers. These still are not easy things for him to tackle, but because of the efforts of countless people along the way, they are at least a possibility. And the smiles that come with the requests to go back to the beach are simply priceless.
Finding Out What We’re Made Of
* I’m still in catching up mode. If you are a loyal follower of this blog, I offer my deepest apologies for not having posted regularly for about 10 weeks. See, about that time, I took on a new adventure of being a full-time substitute for an amazing high school social studies teacher who was on maternity leave. Clearly, some things had to go just to keep up with everything between school, our family, my photography, and my part-time work with our church. There just weren’t enough hours in the day to continue everything, so blog-posting was one that had to go on the back burner. However, I kept writing. It’s one of those things that I find I simply can’t not do. It just happens. So while I wasn’t posting, I was still writing. It’s time now to catch up. Thank you for sticking with me! 🙂 Here’s “Finding Out What We’re Made Of” from July 2, 2015.
FINDING OUT WHAT WE’RE MADE OF
I often wonder if people get tired of hearing of my “amazing Ben stories” and wish I’d just keep the quips to myself. I think our friends and family understand our excitement and the enormity of some of our musings, but others, well, others may wonder what the big deal is.
The reality is, every moment of everyone’s life is to be celebrated to some extent, but for those on the spectrum, even the little things are big things. Some people with autism can’t talk. That doesn’t mean they don’t communicate. It means we need to work to understand their language. Behavior is communication. Facial expressions can be a language all their own.
Sometimes we have to push through the difficulties, work through the tears and the fears and the “I want to give up”s and work toward the goal. Sometimes the goal is finding a way to communicate needs. Sometimes the goal is being able to stand up and walk or run or jump. Sometimes the goal is to read a book, write your name or do a math problem.
There are plenty of opportunities to quit; lots of chances to give up along the way and say, that’s okay, “I will just read to Ben. I will write his name. I can carry him.” But that doesn’t help him in the long run. It doesn’t help either one of us when he is in school, or when he is too big and I am too weak to carry him. So we push through. We love through the tears and work through the challenges. And eventually we get to the “I Did It, Mommy!”s.
As our Pastor instructed during a recent lesson on staying the course, somewhere between “I want to quit.” and “I’m finished,” we find out what we’re made of.
Day 6: Faith
I was raised on Sunday school, church, Bible school, Saturday morning communion classes, and Wednesday afternoon confirmation classes. I learned many life lessons in the quilting room which doubled as our classroom at St. Luke’s in Campbell Hill, IL. It was in the Saturday morning communion class that I learned how to kick a kickball and one Wednesday afternoon confirmation class taught me just how far a seventh grader could spit Dr. Pepper when a classmate surprised everyone with how realistically he could imitate a machine gun. These are important things to know as you’re growing up! But somewhere along the way, I also learned how much of an impact a simple gesture can make on someone else’s life, even when you don’t realize it because to you, it’s just a simple thing you do. I learned that life isn’t always easy, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t good. And I learned that a little bit of faith can take you a long way. I had no idea in those preteen years how profound that lesson would become in my child-rearing days.
I’m thankful for autism because it has brought my faith to the forefront of my being. Yes, I have relied on my faith to get me through troubling days several times over the years: my parents’ divorce; losing our fourth child to a miscarriage; and the death of my brother, my grandfather, and a dear friend all in the span of two months to name a few. However, nothing but our faith could have gotten us through the blow that came with Ben’s diagnosis and the subsequent roller-coaster that has been our lives ever since. I’m eternally grateful to be blessed with the wonderful husband I have. Recent statistics indicate that 80% of marriages with a child on the autism spectrum end in divorce. 80%. That number nearly takes my breath away. I have never felt that our marriage has been threatened by autism, but I also know that having a husband with a strong faith has made all the difference in the world in how we handle life on the spectrum. That doesn’t mean he’s perfect. Neither of us are, but strong marriages rarely involve both people being strong at the same time, but rather a husband and a wife who take turns being strong while the other is feeling weak. I know that when I’m down, I won’t be there alone (physically and figuratively) and I won’t be there forever. Having faith tells me that no matter what lies ahead of us, God is already there.